Motherhood Monday

Monday always comes with good and bad. The bad is that the weekend is over and good to start a new week and make it a good one. As it pertains to motherhood, for me, I am hoping for a good night of sleep from my little one. Last night Emiliano was up at 4am pushing me out of bed he wanted to go outside and play AT 4am. I let my hubby take him till 5am then I was up with him. To look on the bright side I was just happy he didn't have a fever or pooping or throwing up. I could of really used those 3 hours of sleep A. because I have to work and B. I am pregnant and need sleep and C. I used to be the girl who loved to sleep. To keep my sanity I just tried to look on the bright side and lay down with him while he watched Charlie Brown and played. With Olivia coming in June I wanted to have Emiliano sleeping all by himself but life dos net work like that for me. I at times feel overwhelmed and wonder why, why me, why won't my son SLEEP. If I could have a wish it would be that he sleeps by himself and the whole night. I started looking for answers, answers to why, what and anything to help my mind understand. I ran across a book by Sarah Mae  and Sally Clarkson called Desperate. All I have to say is WOW DOUBLE WOW. I am reading this as we speak and I am loving it and all that it is bringing to me. I am not alone and I am not alone in my feelings about being a mom. Being a mom is hard work and no one told me this all they ever told me was I was going to be a great mom. I knew I loved kids and I knew that I wanted to have a family. No one ever told me that I would never sit down a really relax, eat a hot meal, have 5 minutes to myself just to clear my head, every watch TV again the list could go on and on but I will stop here. I love my son more that anything when he looks at me he makes me forget that he just kicked me in the face and that NOW I have a pounding headache. When we were sick this past week all I wished for was for him to get better and fast it make me feel so uneasy to see him sick. I would just want to cry, to cry for myself for getting him sick, for feeling sick, for him to stop coughing, for his fever to break, for his to stop fighting me on everything like giving him medicine and taking him to the Dr. Yeah this kid is a fighter. Now that we are almost all better my wish is granted but he is still fighting me for giving him breathing treatments and giving him his meds but I am grateful that he is better. This motherhood life is hard and reading this book seems to be helping me heal and deal with life as a mama. I love my life, my husband, my son, my daughter, my parents and I love being a mom but at the end of the day I am human.

Sick days

Well it happened we got sick first me now it is my sweet boy. So I will be MIA till all is back to normal and to top it off my hubby is out of town working on a print. Thank God for my parents. Where and what would I do if I didn't have them.

20 weeks

Daily Emiliano

As a new year started I wanted to just try to do new things and I wanted to take daily pictures for my sweet boy Emiliano. So I will take daily pictures of Emiliano and post them on my Instagram but on Friday post here a montage of the weekly pictures. I hope you enjoy my growing boy as much as I do.

From a co-sleeper to a non co-sleeper

Well when I first knew I was going to be a mom I had it mind what kind of mom I would be. I was going to be a co-sleeping mother I work and away from my son from 8-5 and when I really though about it I really only had 5 hours a day max with him. So I always felt sad not sleeping with him. Now that he is 2 and I am pregnant with our 2nd baby I have changed my mind and my way of thinking. When our new baby arrives I WILL NOT be a co-sleeping for many reasons. My son, at 2 still doesn't sleep through the night and last night he was up at 2:45-4ish. Now to keep my sanity I will sleep train my new baby to sleep in their crib. I have armed myself with some new items that I think will help me through this process. First a video monitor I am going to chose from these two 1. Angelcare and 2.Motorola MBP36 Remote Wireless Video Baby Monitor with Infrared Night Vision and Zoom   so I don't have to always be walking in to check on the baby. I also got this book and video to help me. It is from Sleep Planet and I have heard and read good reviews and I hope it works for us. I am going to try to get my 2 year old to sleep by himself also. And I no longer think that I am a bad mom for putting my child in their crib. I will actually be a better mama and wife and human being if I got some real sleep. I love my children move than life itself but when I am to tired to function and be that great mama they need I need to make a change. Here is to better nights full of complete sleep.

Morning walks

Here is my sweet boy walking our dog. It just so happens that he is about to poop and Emilinao doesn't care he is going for a walk. I love this picture my sweet boy is growing up and there is nothing I can do but just rejoice in it. When I was pregnant Diego was always there for me. He slept with me, he would get my sympathy pains like my morning sickness, yup Diego would be sick in the mornings and when the baby was born Diego was always so concerned. When the baby would be crying Diego would pace up and down right outside the door until he stop crying. When I would be holding the baby and put him to sleep Diego was at my feet protecting us. Now the Emiliano is 2 and going through his toddler days Diego is always to the rescue to dry up those tears or bring that smile on Emiliano's face. My parents text me throughout the day and send me updates on what these two are getting into and I love it. Seeing them like this brings a smile on my face. I can't wait to pick up my baby after work.

Baptism

Emiliano's Baptism

So we finally baptism our sweet boy and what a great day it was and boy did I learn a lesson. It was early in the morning and I knew Emiliano would be in a good mood and he was. But what I feared was that he wasn't going to sit through the whole mass and sure enough he didn't. He wouldn't let me put on his fancy outfit too so much for picture time. When I was younger I always wondered why didn't my parents have more pictures of us doing things and I think I know why YOUR CHILDREN WILL NOT WANT TO SIT FOR A PHOTO IT DOSENT MATTER IF IT IS A SPECIAL OCCASION. I  know moms who plan their whole extience on taking pictures at times like this but me I just want a couple of pictures and I am happy I will forevery have the memory in my mind and heart and most of all I lived that moment with my son. My parents were there and so was my mother in law, they both saved the day helping keep Emiliano at ease. My dad even got to hold the baby while they poured the holy water and blessed Emiliano and that moment was very special. I can't wait to tell Milo about it when he is older. My dad and him have a very special bond, my dad took care of Milo since he was a infant till this day. Now my mom and dad take care of Milo while we work and it is such a blessing.  Got to love my parents. So one things my hubby and I have learned is that we will baptism the new baby within 5 months of them being born.